Yellow. You know that feeling you get when you are driving near a traffic light, and suddenly it turns yellow. You don't know weather to go a little faster or to slow down and stop. Eventually you decide on one, and that's it. You either stay behind or passed it. That's what I feel right now.
When I decide to stay behind and stop, it's usually because I am feeling calm and not in any hurry (sometimes I am trying to be late on purpose :p). When I stay behind, I feel that I want to take a breather (is that a word?), and be safe. In real life, I think I wish to do the same with some of my decisions, because I don't want to mess up. So, I try to take it as slow as I can, to postpone the decision, in order to look at all my options (or so I tell myself).
When I decide to speed up, it's usually happens because I am in a hurry, irritated, or just not in the mood to negotiate. When I speed up, I feel that I am advancing against other, that I am moving forward while the others are left behind. I sometimes feel the same way towards life, you know. You want to be successful. You want to be the top best. You need to be fast and furious. Sometimes I like that feeling, but I get tired of it pretty quickly.
I think that I am 70:30 in slow down:speed up. I enjoy being on top of things, and being able to be thought of as competent. But to tell you the truth, if you speed up and crash, that's the end. I am not saying I should not encourage myself to take risk, but I am just not the person conformable doing that.
That is one aspect about myself that I am trying to improve.
I am trying to step out of my comfort zone. Not to the extent where I completely change my personality, but to the extend that I feel comfortable I won't kill myself. I think it's working little my little.
I hope one day to be able to create a balance between my goals and my fears.
So tell me, what traffic light best describes you?
Have a great start of the week everybody :)